I’ve probably started about five different blogs in the last several years, but I think I create them too focused on a theme. I want to commit to a place outside of facebook to post thoughts and pictures. I’ve decided to name my blog “Healthy Magnolia” since I feel like my main focus over the last several years has been to be mentally and physically healthier. I spend way too much time trying to maintain a perfect, boring diet along side an exhausting workout schedule, and then I beat myself up when I can’t keep the whole routine going. I almost feel like I need to relearn how to eat at times, but it’s probably the hardest thing I’ve ever tried to do.
The last year has been great as I begin to open up to more people about my struggle with my eating disorder. I started to feel like not talking about the problem was the one reason why I couldn’t sustain “recovery.” I just don’t like to talk about it, or more so, admit it. But at the same time, it’s not doing me any good pretending like I have it all together. I can have spans where I am perfectly okay, but all it takes is one crazy weekend to throw me out of my routine and then my eating issues bubble up to the surface. It’s completely nerve racking and embarassing to talk about it openly like this. However, if risking embarassment will help me overcome and learn how to relax and enjoy life, then I’d say it’s completely worth it. Hiding it hasn’t done me any favors, that’s for sure.revomuscle precio
In three weeks, I hit the big 3-0. It saddens me when I read stories of 50-year-old women who have struggled with a disordered relationship with food. I’ve had a lot of great experiences in my 20′s, but my disorder has been this nagging weight that keeps pulling me back down again and again. It’s absolutely no way to live, and I can’t see how someone can carry this stress through decades of life. It’s such a waste. There has to be a happy medium between embracing and indulging in life and being healthy and responsible.spartanol cena